Just the Cat's Pyjamas

Every morning, I wake up and see them. The many, many bottles sitting on my nightstand. I groan. Another day of these fucking pills. One, two, three, four... I count them out. I barely have to look at the labels now, I can tell them apart just by the sound they make when I shake the bottle. “Promise me you’ll always remember — you’re braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” • A. A. Milne Every morning, before I toss them into my mouth, I hesitate. I could just STOP. Stop fighting, stop this battle. Admit defeat. I could choose that. Most mornings, the hesitation is short lived. Some mornings, though, it seems harder to force myself to take these goddamned pills again.  "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." • Robert Frost I've been taking these meds consistently for a decade. A decade. And I've been on and off them for over two decades. I was prescribed my first psych meds ...